I am broken but not discourage persecuted but not dismayed I am a vessel full of power with the presences of the Lord!!!
As a Pastor's wife I am in a unique position to see brokenness at a different view. I get to hear the stories after stories of brokenness from all over, not just at the church but from the day to day events my husband may be involved with, to the various young ladies I counsel, to the beautiful sisters I am blessed to fellowship with. Yet this post has been the hardest for me to write, because my spirit is broken and dismayed with the current state of our Christian community.
Brokenness is something that everyone, Saved, Saint and Sinner will experience. While many may not admit this it is a fact that brokenness is a fact of life. My brokenness is not because someone came and call me out of my name, many times it is not because I did not get my way, my brokenness is when I have prayed, fasted, tried and tried and God still "SEEMS" as if he just is not hearing my cry. My brokenness isn't because you talked about me it is because I asked God to fix you, well the spirit that brought your negative-ness yet you continue. My brokenness comes from watching saints; the Christian community continues to give Christ substandard devotion, half hearted worship and kitchen sink praise. Even though before I go into any spiritual meeting I ask him Lord let them see how wonderful you are!!
I am broken my sisters and brothers not because anyone has done anything it is because so many have done nothing. I have watched this world, this country; our communities and our churches just diminish so in our values, our morals and our Christian belief.
When is it now okay for a Pastor to have an affair on his wife, steal from the church and than preach for the sacred podium proclaiming the love, adoration and commitment of Christ to us. Why is it okay for a Pastor to despise his mother and father, have animosity toward other men of God including their own brothers but continue to preach forgiveness and God's redemptive blood from the sacred podium. Why is it okay for fellow people of the cloth to be okay to chastise their congregation for looking so sternly on these act yet are the first not to chastise or correct their fellow coharts in the ministry.
I have had two people this week tell me the reason they can not go back to church is because of what a Pastor has done to offend. It wasn't until last night that I understood that when the hurt comes from the Pulpit it is far greater than anyone else because this is the person that is to represent God in Christ like behavior. (Yes I know they are still human yet that is the excuse we give everyday and the sinner man per the conversation I had yesterday is not buying it. Like I was told you tell me I am just justifying my actions when I give you an excuse but are you not doing the same!!! WOW is all I could say. People we "Christians are hurting and hindering the salvation of this world!)
2 Chronicles 7:14
King James Version (KJV)
14 If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.
It is okay for our Christians to go to church everyday, claim their ever dying love towards Christ but will not call or even speak to a love one in need. It is okay for us to say we are saved but before we leave the church grounds speak ill of our brothers and sisters.
Saints I JUST WASN'T RAISED LIKE THAT!!!!!
1. The man of God that I sat under for over 30 years and the one I sit under now, daily prayer was/is Lord I don't want to be a jack leg preacher. A preacher that was everywhere but did nothing or one that no one trusted or believe in. My husband constant prayer is let them see the Christ in me!
1 Timothy 3:2, 12
"A bishop then must be blameless, the husband of one wife, vigilant, sober, of good behavior, given to hospitality, apt to teach. . . . Let the deacons be the husbands of one wife, ruling their children and their own houses well."
Proverbs 19:26 King James 2000
He that mistreats his father, and chases away his mother, is a son that causes shame, and brings reproach.
http://pastormikeadventist.blogspot.com/2008/12/ought-against-thy-brother.html
4. Christ Like behavior as a Christian is not as easy as people think, trust me I am learning this everyday, but we as Christian made a promise to Christ to strive to be Christ Like!!! How do we claim to be doers of his word when we speak ill of our brothers and sister, and gossip. I haven't read anywhere that this is acceptable in Christ Sight!!!
James 1:22 But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves.
Ya'll I am so glad that as my husband preached a couple Sunday's ago that GOD can mend my broken pieces. I am so glad that I am not bound by the words of man who are just flesh and blood like me. I hear so many men of God say "hey, hey I am a pastor or preacher, but there lives depict whole different life styles" God said touch not his anointed. What everyone forget that if we are save they are also God's anointed, so what if they touch his anointed. There is song that simply says "somebody going to pay for my tears" One thing I have truly learned that just because we are saved, just because a title has been attached to your name DOES NOT GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO OFFEND, HURT OR DIMEAN ANYONE, THROUGH CHRIST! As I am growing in Christ I am learning to distance myself from people that feel they can say and do anything and hide behind the Cloth because in this short life I am seeing a lot of men of God, and Christians pay an enormous price for their sins against God's anointed.
Proverbs 26:27
Whoever digs a pit will fall into it,
and he who rolls a stone will have it roll back on him.
and he who rolls a stone will have it roll back on him.
Saints God is a vengeful God that is word, so don't believe that our continued disobedience, disrespect towards our parents, children and others, our lack of love and honor, and our lack of fear for his word and commandments will not be answered for. God showed me something wonderful today...Vengeance is mine saith the Lord!! He will have the final say!!
Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.
Deuteronomy 32:35 :
King James Bible
To me belongeth vengeance and recompence; their foot shall slide in due time: for the day of their calamity is at hand, and the things that shall come upon them make haste
So..I am troubled, yet not distressed. Perplexed, but not in despair. Cause I’m a vessel full of power, With a treasure, none can compare.
Persecuted, but not forsaken. Cast down, but not destroyed. I’m a vessel full of power With a treasure, from the Lord.
