The Butterfly

So as I re-read a post from a while back "Love's Sacrifice" I am simply in awe on how it blessed my soul.  So in honor of my two butterflies I am writing this post to hopefully encourage every young lady that sometimes you have to go with-in yourself to find yourself.


Lets look at the evolution of a butterfly.  When it starts out as a worm/larva it is vulnerable to the environment.  It may be a caterpillar or a worm, but at the end of the day it is limited to where and what it can do. 


As the evolution process goes on God creates in the caterpillar an innate instinct that it has come to a point in itself that it must find refuge in a cocoon.  It in essence has to go within itself, cover itself (for protection) and hibernate to heal and rebuild itself to the true person with in.  Everything starts with an egg, here is the real awesome thing the first shell is to birth but the second shell/cocoon is for rebirth. 


The bible says he gives us brand new mercies everyday.  We become a new creature in him everyday, but sometimes to truly find what God is trying to tell us we sometimes have to put our selves in a cocoon.  Block ourselves from the struggles of this world, shelter ourselves from the storms and the waves, cut ourselves for the negative forces that may wear us down and just go into a quiet, secluded place that only you and God resides.

Let him talk to you, heal you, restore you, love on you and minister to you. Let him create in you and recreate you.  Sometimes it is a hard and painful process. Looking at the caterpillar, what energy it must take to weave yourself into a cocoon.  The fear process of cutting yourself off from what you know.  The darkness you must feel all alone.  Yet understand the caterpillar does it so naturally because he/she trust the process that God is taking it through. TRUST THE PROCESS!!!

Romans 12:2

      

         And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.

Yet when the cocoon hardens and the process of healing, learning, evolving and rebirthing is finish, you will be so surprise on how you come out. How you will fly to heights unknown even to yourself. Well I am praying on what butterfly I will be and when I will come out, but until I get there I just want Sis. Garrett and Sis. Spencer to know I got some pretty good examples.


 So to my beautiful eggs, caterpillars, butterflies, remember I am in this fight just like you. We are wives, mothers, daughters, sisters and friends and just like the name of my Blog we must walk in faith everyday-WIFE!!! 

When God Says it is over with!!!

Sometimes you hurt so bad.  We want to share so much, we want to cry to those who have hurt us, we want to share with our love ones but they just don't want to know!!!


But when God says it is over!!!  My LORD!!!


You really don't know when it happens, why it happens or what has happens but when God says it is over. The hurt starts nulling, you start seeing the witness, the testimony and you ask a lot of questions? 


But when God says it is over!!!


You see how others are going through similar struggles. How the devil is trying to destroy not only you, your testimony but others in the same manner.


But when God says it is over!!!


You realize you are not healed.  You may be in the healing process.  You may be still be in the infection process, you may still be at the scabbing process, or you may just have baby skin on the wound.  Look you may be shattered to the point of dust and be in the remolding process but When God says the crying, self pity and self-indignation is over!!!!  You don't understand why but you just know that God is doing something.  You know that no matter what you have to trust him to fix it and get over it!!! It HURTS!!!!  IT HURTS, IT HURTS, IT HURTS But when God says it is over, he puts a fight in you out of no where and no matter the hurt you have go on!!!

 

Finding Me....

As many times as I have sung this song to minister to others.  Never has it ministered to me soo.  As I am asking the Lord to encourage me, I have to take some crucial steps to find me.  So I am praying that as I share my struggle I bless someone to find the strength to find themselves.


1.  Look in the mirror and see who you are.  Not the one that shows your complexion, your hair length, your teeth, your eyes, nose or ears.  Not the mirror that shows how much weight you have gained, or how your shape has changed but the mirror of your life.


2. Look at the mirror that shows your inner worth. You feel you have no worth, you feel so lost, so broken, so fill with disappointment, despair and hurt.  You prayed, you have cried, you have prostrated yourself on the Cross. You reached up to Christ for the life line and you know he is carrying you because you would have surely drowned by now, but will he heal you.  You feel like a lonely ship on a dark and r


3. Evaluate the people you have lost and evaluate what value they placed in your life or what were the sucking out of your life.


4. Look at the family that has turned their backs or shun you and evaluate was it because they didn't understand your love, where their views of you tainted by lies of others or did you not live up to the expectations they place on you.


5. Look at your friends, are they placing any value to your existence or causing you just to exists. 


Now evaluate your purpose?  Do you have a purpose are you walking in a daze not knowing what to do where to go, who to trust or if to trust. 


As you go on this journey to find yourself, remember even Jesus was abandoned, refused, abused and broken.  It is hard to see that, even harder is you are flesh and not Jesus.  Your strength is not Jesus, your mind is not Jesus!  You are in Jesus, Jesus is in you but the flesh, mind and spirit has been so broken so many times you feel as if you are not shattered pieces but at the state of the original form of glass, sand!


It is even harder when you have no one to lean on and you feel even Jesus has turned from you. You wonder what have you done to make this race so hard to run? You tell your soul to take courage because the Lord will make a way somehow, but WHEN???


So in this quest of finding me.... I encourage me to Lift my eyes up unto the hills from whence cometh my help.  Psalms 121:1

 2 Corinthians 4:7-12

Encourage myself in the Lord....because I am the Corinthians Song!!!  7But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, so that the surpassing greatness of the power will be of God and not from ourselves; 8we are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not despairing; 9persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; 10always carrying about in the body the dying of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body. 11For we who live are constantly being delivered over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. 12So death works in us, but life in you.

When I read the scripture that this song was structured after, I realized that this is the road that we chose, being a Christian!  YES it is so hard, Ladies it is hard.  People will take your love and trample all over it.  They will take your fight and declare it everything but what you intended it to be.  They will lie, defame and do everything to destroy your character and your inner worth. At the end to do one thing destroy your ministry and break your spirit.  Don't be fool the devil uses everybody, your mommy, daddy, brothers, sister, husband, children, pastor, church family, friends and foe.  He has no respect of person.


Yet what do you do when you are broken?????? Cover yourself in his blood.  That is all you can do.  Trust him even-though you are afraid to trust.  Engulf yourself in his word and trust nothing no one says, but him!!! Hear me!!!!  It was flesh that hurt you, now you MUST hear and trust no one, nothing but the BLOOD!!!  Pray that you know the difference!  Still Finding ME!!!!