1. Look in the mirror and see who you are. Not the one that shows your complexion, your hair length, your teeth, your eyes, nose or ears. Not the mirror that shows how much weight you have gained, or how your shape has changed but the mirror of your life.
2. Look at the mirror that shows your inner worth. You feel you have no worth, you feel so lost, so broken, so fill with disappointment, despair and hurt. You prayed, you have cried, you have prostrated yourself on the Cross. You reached up to Christ for the life line and you know he is carrying you because you would have surely drowned by now, but will he heal you. You feel like a lonely ship on a dark and r
3. Evaluate the people you have lost and evaluate what value they placed in your life or what were the sucking out of your life.
4. Look at the family that has turned their backs or shun you and evaluate was it because they didn't understand your love, where their views of you tainted by lies of others or did you not live up to the expectations they place on you.
5. Look at your friends, are they placing any value to your existence or causing you just to exists.
Now evaluate your purpose? Do you have a purpose are you walking in a daze not knowing what to do where to go, who to trust or if to trust.
As you go on this journey to find yourself, remember even Jesus was abandoned, refused, abused and broken. It is hard to see that, even harder is you are flesh and not Jesus. Your strength is not Jesus, your mind is not Jesus! You are in Jesus, Jesus is in you but the flesh, mind and spirit has been so broken so many times you feel as if you are not shattered pieces but at the state of the original form of glass, sand!
It is even harder when you have no one to lean on and you feel even Jesus has turned from you. You wonder what have you done to make this race so hard to run? You tell your soul to take courage because the Lord will make a way somehow, but WHEN???
So in this quest of finding me.... I encourage me to Lift my eyes up unto the hills from whence cometh my help. Psalms 121:1
2 Corinthians 4:7-12
Encourage myself in the Lord....because I am the Corinthians Song!!! 7But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, so that the surpassing greatness of the power will be of God and not from ourselves; 8we are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not despairing; 9persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; 10always carrying about in the body the dying of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body. 11For we who live are constantly being delivered over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. 12So death works in us, but life in you.
When I read the scripture that this song was structured after, I realized that this is the road that we chose, being a Christian! YES it is so hard, Ladies it is hard. People will take your love and trample all over it. They will take your fight and declare it everything but what you intended it to be. They will lie, defame and do everything to destroy your character and your inner worth. At the end to do one thing destroy your ministry and break your spirit. Don't be fool the devil uses everybody, your mommy, daddy, brothers, sister, husband, children, pastor, church family, friends and foe. He has no respect of person.
Yet what do you do when you are broken?????? Cover yourself in his blood. That is all you can do. Trust him even-though you are afraid to trust. Engulf yourself in his word and trust nothing no one says, but him!!! Hear me!!!! It was flesh that hurt you, now you MUST hear and trust no one, nothing but the BLOOD!!! Pray that you know the difference! Still Finding ME!!!!
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