Love's Sacrifice

Love and its sacrifice…..

I read a story on last week and I myself said I don’t know if I could do this.  Yet the sacrifice of love…. that this woman did was so beautiful  I understood so much about the saying when mommy would say sometimes you will give 100% and he will give 0.  Sometimes he will give 100 and you will be 0 but those are the times that will truly show if you or he really loves.  See can you love me when I ain’t giving nothing, when I am so wipe out at life that I just can’t.  When failed hopes and dreams has destroyed me from within; when family has hurt and destroyed my trust so that I stop trusting?  What is your LOVE Sacrifice!

 http://theweek.com/article/index/99512/the-last-word-he-said-he-was-leaving-she-ignored-him?fb_action_ids=545614482177517&fb_action_types=og.likes&fb_source=aggregation&fb_aggregation_id=288381481237582#

This story is long but worth the time if you question if you are really in love.  See not to long ago my mother said her commitment was not to my dad but to God.  Her marriage was not for the world’s glory but God.  So what is your love sacrifice?  A couple of months ago a man I admired so past and I literally watch a light go out in his wife.  I knew there was something I admired much in her but I could never place it, was it her love for Christ (Yes) her love for her Children Yes) her love for her husband (Yes)!!!

 Pastor and Sis. Wendell Spencer

 See I know from her testimony her love sacrifice was a lot, because I am a pastor’s wife and sometimes not because they don’t want to but they just can’t you have to fill in the gaps for them because they are carrying everyone else’s burdens.  Sometimes you have to pray for him when he don’t know it because the world and his flock will severely misuse and abuse him and sometimes you just LOVE on him to build him up because THAT IS WHAT a Love Sacrifice is!!!!  Real Talk ladies….  Stop looking for him to always be the one carrying you.  Loving on you, respecting you, building you up and supporting you.  Trust and believe if you become one with your man sometimes you will have to give 100%, and sometimes he will be the 100% but that is loves sacrifice.  50/50 days do come and they are beautiful.  70/30 is good too, but I have had a couple of 100% and 0% going both ways and I am here to tell you they may have been some hard days and low moments but Guess what the Oneness between DeeFin(Pastor Finley-for those political correct people) and I is more beautiful than the 50/50 days by far!!!!!    Real Talk!!!

Proverbs 31:10-12 Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies. ¹¹ The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil.  ¹² She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life.

I'll Cry..but I will still walk in faith

To day has been a Walking in Faith Moment....

A song writer said.... I wish I could tell you just what I want and you would give it to me just like that!!!!!

That is my testimony today!!!!

When God gave me this title for my blog I really didn't understand exactly what He was doing with it, but I see that my life has been a faith walk every step of the way.  My Dad never knew how to love me but I had faith that God did.  My brothers have no concept of who I really am but I have always had faith that God knew who I am.  My sister has always depended on me but the majority of my life the ones I thought I could depend on have one by one been taken away, but God!!  My husband as loving, supportive and protective as he is can not protect me from the hurts of life that hits the inner  soul of a women!! My Children fill me with Love, admoration and pride but the emptiness that comes with life only God can fill.  So no matter how beautiful your life may seem, it always throws some crazy blows at us and sometimes they are not blows; they are simple NO's from our heavenly father!!!!

The no's hurt worst than the maybe's.  I will never ever understand all of the hurts I have experience in my life, but I do understand that God has a plan for me and I understand that sometimes he simply says no!!!!

His no is complete, there is no turning back the clock or bringing back the years that are missed, but I pray daily that the void He has allowed to be place in my heart, the emptines and lonliness is soon filled with love and joy once again.  

So my testimony to you...my beloved is Walking in Faith is not an easy task. It is not something so easily acquired.  There is no floor plan or map...it is simply walking, trusting and believing that:
1.  God is God all by Himself
2.  My ways are not his wayIsaiah 55:8-9
3.  He has a plan for me that I will not always understandJeremiah 29:11
4.  His will is perfect(Romans 12:2
5.  His love is true and sacrificial Romans 5:8; 1 John 4:9-10
6.  Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the word of God Romans 10:17
7.  You can not have faith in him if you don't believe in him, you can not believe in him, if you don't trust him and you can not trust him if you don't Love HIM!!!! John 14:15-30

So my friends listend to my Testimony...and know that I am going walk in faith everyday...no matter what, sooooooooooo

I'll cry till he tells me let it go let it be, because oh Lord your will is what's Best for me!!!!